Good Day Turn Bad
I woke up this morning to probably the best moods that i have been having this week strangely, and i went done a little shopping with my mum and got a few things i needed for my trip to Paris and all of a sudden i started to come down with hot flushes and feeling really ill like really sick, so automatic reaction was to get home asap cause you never know what else could happen.
Cut a very long story short, as soon as i walked through my door my mum’s notification on facebook pinged and that’s when my whole mood changed my sister’s Saturday school teacher had died this morning literally never really knew her just knew of her and that but i am taking this so to heart for what reason i don’t know.
She had a 3 year old child so it’s sad to know she now has no mother around to take her to school or pick her up, have cuddles with or whatever, she now has to cope and suffer with the fact her mum has died and that’s so painful for a child at that age to take in.
Then to think she was such a nice person she would always take to my sister and always help her gain confidence and encourage her to do things, she gave everyone support when they needed it and she was a type of person she wanted to help the youths of today even if she knew she couldn’t for whatever type of reason she would at least try.
The reason for her death is still unknown, and it’s pretty ironic just last night i wrote up a Post about my weight and my sufferings and feelings and look what happens today? I think it’s some type of hint or reality check because all of a sudden i just want to change EVERYTHING life is way too short and i just want to appreciate my life.
For some type of reason it’s like i kinda had a bad feeling something was gonna happen or come up but never counted it to be the next day so weird! Maybe the feelings i felt today was the feelings the woman felt while she was dying? I Know i sound crazy right now but the signs and signals i have had in the space of yesterday to today is mental, but i would of thought it would of happened to somebody i am really close with.
Still feel pretty sick and refuse to eat, just want to drink water and maybe eat fruit that’s it it’s kicked into me that with my weight issues i really need to crack down and DO SOMETHING before it’s too late all this weight loss shows and everyone chatting up loosing weight is all signs for me i know it is never known so much especially the media to always be talking about health etc.
R.I.P Claire x
